How often in life do we make a decision? Weekly? Daily? Hourly?
Do we think a lot before we decide, do we make a list of pros and cons or do we not really think about it and just go for it?
No matter how big the decision will be, whether it is just a little thing (which sweater do I wear today, do I take a short or large walk?) or whether it is something bigger (where will my next trip go, do I really want to open a café, is it time to reorient myself?) each of us has our own approach or strategy to make a decision.
As soon as we make a decision, we choose something, but we must not forget that we decide against something on the same turn.
If I decide to go right at an intersection, I decide against turning left or following the path that goes straight. In order to arm ourselves against later doubts, we should always be sure of our decision.
If we live in the trust that my life always contains what I should encounter, then I will not regret any of my decisions, because then I will live in harmony with myself, my higher self, my soul and my inner voice.
Let´s move away from the small decisions, like which sweater I put on, whether I go for a short or long walk or where my next vacation will go. Let´s turn to the essential things.
Am I happy with the man by my side, do we have a future together, will we have a family, will we build a house, will we live happily ever after? Okay, that sounds like an outdated model, right? So many things are changing right now ... So you can ask yourself whether this typical family picture is still suitable or whether it is ready to be renewed?
I personally grew up just as well, in a large house, with a large garden, cats, mother and father always by my side, no worries, hardships and fears except for those that I have put up myself and that I have just brought down with me on earth (since these belong to me and are part of my task, it is also completely okay that they are there).
It was a nice way to grow up, but I wonder, will this be my life too? Do I see myself in this constellation in a few years? As a wife, mother, at home, with a large house and garden? Or do I see myself completely different? Because I have a picture in my head that cannot be reconciled with wife, mother, a house and a garden.
I am the one who is free, who loves independence, who loves spontaneity, not so much the uncertainty but somehow I do. I live the moment and yet I have a plan, an idea ... But this idea cannot be combined with sedentary life and being a mother, because I know that I cannot do both. So what do I choose? My dreams or a family? Many say you don't have to choose because you can have both. But honestly, who likes to be a mother when he can't be with the children and which children would like to have a mother who is more on the go than at home? I worked for a few families where the mother was constantly working... And what happened? The children begun to see me as their mother and an intensive bond was woven.
Do I really want my children to have a more motherly relationship with another woman than with me? No, definitely not.
As of today, I choose my dream. Because I'm here to do what I am supposed to do, to live my dreams. I love children and I know that if I ever should be a mother, I will do a great job, but I feel like this time it´s about me…
I live my life, now for once I am the centre around which everything in my life revolves.
No, it's not an easy decision, but I know that you can't do both with the same amount of passion, love and power...
What is the beautiful thing about life?
Life always finds a way and what should be, will be. Either way…